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Tomorrow is the big day when I get my hubby back. Im so excited. Today Im just cleaning and doing everything in my power to stay busy.

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Matthew will be flying out of Portland, Maine at about 6am their time, which is 3am our time. He will land in Washington D.C. and then fly out to L.A. from L.A. he will fly to Bakersfield, and if no layovers be there by approximately 1pm.
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Im so excited. This week has been nothing but stress and hell. But, we survived it, almost 24 hours to go. Then we are going to head to the lake and hangout with his parents for a few hours and play games or something. Its our niece, Maddison's, birthday. I dont know if we will be around for the party, but we definately want to see her and spend time with everyone. We have previous engagements to attend *wink*. Cant wait to see our friends at the brewery.

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Anyway, so today I have to keep really busy so I dont sit there staring at the clock counting down the hours...like they say, if you watch the pot, the water will never boil. Lol, who comes up with sayings like that? Im going to clean the house really well and get the car washed again because a bird pooped on the drivers side door and window when it was parked at my work (stupid birds hehe) and get it vacumned out and ready for my trip tomorrow. YAY!

American Idol

Okay, well, let me start by saying I was never, and never thought I would be, an American Idol viewer. Lol. But, this season has sucked me in...and let me just tell you, I love love love Allison. That 16 year old girl can SING!!! She is incredible, amazing, fantastic, wonderful, enjoyable...I could go on and on. If she doesn't make it to the end...America is deaf. I like Adam, and I enjoy listening to Megan...they have great voices and will go far in their careers for sure. I would buy their albums...but Allison is the best...Yup, thats all I have to say about it.

Cry me a river...

Had the worst break down...ended up making myself sick today. Really cant afford to take a day off work...but oh well, not much I can do about it.

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So, basically, I give props to the woman out there who are home alone for months at a time while their husbands are overseas. I don't know how you do it. I'm having the hardest time just being alone for a week.

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I have been holding in my emotions ever since Matthew left, and I have been trying so hard to be strong that I hit that point where you cant hold it any longer. I cried for 3 hours last night. I'm so angry at the situation and I ended up taking it out on Matthew. That is not even what I wanted to do, but its hard. I know this probably sounds really stupid, but I'm just so alone without him, and its hard to keep your mind busy when you have no friends to hang out with, and you have a job that allows you to sit and think...and think...and think....yeah, girls doing too much thinking...really not a good thing. And, Matthew is soo understanding and so supportive, even though I was wrong for being upset with him when it was the situation that is the real problem, he didnt get mad at me...he is so amazing.

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Well, I ended up waking up feeling like complete hell. What I would give to have my husband back. I cant even talk to him for more than 10 minutes a day because he is so busy during the day doing training, and then at night by the time I get off work, its 9pm there and he is tired and needs to get some sleep to get up early the next morning again...its like technically he is getting up at 3am to go to work because he is still stuck on western time.

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It just isn't fair...its for the best, but its not fair. They sprung this on him last minute, and its something he could be doing here in California, he is going to have to re qualify for the 9mm pistol when he gets back anyway...none of this makes since to us. But that's how they want to do it, guess its what has to be done. Better than being out of a job...I'm trying to be optimistic, but selfishly, I'm just so depressed without him here. We are newly weds...this is our time.

Lonesom for a week.

Well, I took my husband to Bakersfield Airport this morning. Yup...not a fun day. I didn't want to let him go. On our way up there, we decided to take the canyon. Oh my goodness...first of all, we already knew it was supposed to rain here, but it was snowing in Isabella. The canyon was pouring rain, and it was cold and windy as all hell. Craziness! Put it this way, its like 40- degrees today, the past week has been 80-90 degrees. What the hell is going on here? *giggle* Well, anyways, we got to the airport, I cried, said good bye, and went to Panda Express for lunch and World Market to get some wine(which, by the way, I recently found out that the other night, when I got drunk off wine, I had a southern accent...lol...who knew) It is so weird being by myself in Bakersfield. First of all, its not the safest place for a young lady to be wondering alone in, but second, its just not normal for me. I always have Matthew there with me. It really felt wrong to eat at Panda without him. God, 2 hours and I was already dying without him, he isn't going to be back from his training in Maine till next Saturday...what am I to do with myself? So, anyways, I left Bakersfield at 12pm, when I got to the canyon it was pouring rain still and all the sudden it was hailing...hard. People were being stupid on the road, as usual, and then coming out of the canyon and into Isabella, it was just windy, no rain, no snow, no hail. I get just past Isabella's turn off, and heading toward Mt. Mesa its snowing, but not like "aw, snowflakes," like "oh my god the roads are going to be icy and I'm going to die," snow. It was rolling on the road and it was heavy so you could hardly see. On the mountains and the side of the road it looked like white fire going crazy because the powdered snow was blowing around like a tornado in the wind. It was so crazy. I wish I had brought my camera, I would have been able to get some good shots of it, but the next best thing is to describe it. So, now I'm home, I'm lonely and feeling a bit down, but it will be okay. I can do it. Lol, I'm a big girl and its only a week. Just sucks, newly weds shouldn't be so far apart for so long. *pout* But, fortunately, Matthew has a job still. It would be a whole lot worse for us in the future if he was laid of and not picked up by this contractor, so, I cant really complain too much. Its for the best.

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Instead of deleting my myspace, I simply cleaned it up. I deleted over 100 people, thinking that whoever feels that we are close enough friends and they sincerely want to keep in touch, they would re-add me. Some of the least expected people re-added me, and the ones I thought were my friends havent. One of my friends said that we are good friends and that we will always be friends, but I think she was offended by me deleting her along with everyone else. It wasnt personal, and I sent a message and posted a bulletin out explaining my intentions. I know that she read the message, but there was no reply. Although I deleted her, I deleted a lot of people, and there were only a few people I was hoping would re-add me, she being one of them because I thought we were friends, but when she didnt, I was a little suprised. You definately find out who your friends are.

So, anyways...enough of that...last night, we hung out with the Randies. That was way fun, even though I got drunk by accident. I was drinking Allegro Wine (the best wine ever) and before I knew it, I was drunk. I havent been drunk in almost a year. Kinda feel like a fool concidering I was the only one drunk. LOL. Matthew leaves for Maine tomorrow. *tear* Im so sad about it. Im going to miss him. This will be the second longest time away from eachother in the past 2 years.

March 19th, 2009

♪♫♪HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU♪♫♪

♪♫♪HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU♪♫♪

♪♫♪HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR MAA-THEEW♪♫♪

♪♫♪HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!♪♫♪

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♥A♥Wonderful♥Birthday♥For♥a♥Wonderful♥Husband♥

♥I love you.♥

-Your Wife

Game Night

Today, Matthew and I played Boggle and Monopoly...now usually, we can play games...any game...EXCEPT Monopoly. Hahaha. So, here is the deal, way back when, we didnt have internet or TV and so we played games and stuff to keep ourselves entertained. It was so much fun, except when we played Monopoly. We mutually decided that Monopoly was a game to stay away from if we wanted our relationship to last. (hahaha, not that we would end it over a game, but you know what I mean). Well, today, we played Monopoly. It was fun, we played it and no one get mad, we didnt really finish, because lets face it, the game lasts an eternity. But we played for a good 1.5 hours. We are about to go to the store to get Turbo Tax and a few other things, we were going to get Taboo or Password, or some game like that, but Randi has Apples to Apples and it going to bring that over to play tonight. My mother in law is going to let us have her Password game and Pictionary. Anyway, I cant wait for tonight. The Randies are seriously the best couple in this town. They are honest down to earth people. I have been feeling down the past two days, but I think game night is just what I need.

Still can't believe it

All week I was waiting for my new driver's license to come in the mail...I couldn't figure out what was taking so long...and then while organizing some mail that came in throughout the week, I found it. We went to all the utility places to get my name changed on the accounts and add Matthew to them. Its still so surreal...we are married...I'm his wife...he is my husband. Sometimes it just hits me with butterflies and I feel so giddy. So, its official everywhere, I'm Lisa Jean Griswold. HURRAY!!! I love being his wifey.

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CONGRATULATIONS YOU TWO

Meet

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Randies

I'm not even joking...this is Randi and Randy. They are the cutest couple (besides me and Matthew *wink*) that I know.

They met as neighbors. She was having problems with her swamp cooler and he happened to be the handy man to the rescue. They made their fence in the back yard like a hall way to each others apartments. They both have pugs, she has the female and he has the male. LOL, yeah, most epic relationship I have ever heard of and I love it. Whenever Matt and I hang out with them, its like watching a movie about ourselves as a couple (without the crazy names and story). They are a lot like us in the way they interact with each other and the things they do for fun, its pretty much a mirror image of our lives.

Well, they recently got engaged, New Years Eve going into 2009. Randi thinks that sounds cliche because its "New Years" lol, but it was kind of an accident. They were in Cambria, and Randi thought that it would be cool for the two of them to go to dinner and then come back to the hotel and hang out with Beth and Casey (another adorable couple) and he had plans to propose, so that was as good of time as any.

They are planning to be wed in November of 2009. Couldn't be more happy. They are an amazing couple, and I see them living a long happy marriage together. They are two different souls joining as one perfect life.

Congratulations Randi & Randy!

I love you guys.

A Life Without Him

So, today it really sunk in that I have no life without Matthew. I love my husband to death, but any couple knows that some time apart is healthy.

Matthew's hobby is to play Frisbee Golf (aka Frolf) with his buddies. When he is doing that every Saturday and occasionally in between, or he is at work and I'm at home, I find myself cleaning, running arons, or playing on the computer. I don't have any hobbies, because honestly there isn't much to do in the Crest unless your an alcoholic or you have friends.

Yes, of course I have friends, but they aren't very reliable friends, they are more like acquaintances. Matthew and I have decided that this is just how Ridgecrest people are. Most of them will make plans with me just to turn around and break them, they have more drama than a soap opera, and they go to the bar and drink like camels drink water. My good friends either don't live here anymore or are friends from Isabella that I met through Matthew, the ones who moved are smart and got out while they could. Its kind of depressing when I sit down and have the time to actually think about it. I really hate living in this town. There is nothing really keeping us here except jobs, which mine is transferable. What are we doing trying to buy a house in this crap hole we call home. I love our apartment, and I am fairly happy with my job. I know I would be happy anywhere with Matthew, but when he is off doing his thing, I feel that I have nothing. I'm not happy with Ridgecrest...I haven't been for quite sometime. We need to get out of this black hole once and for all. I think I'm going to look further into it. I know that there are some military bases in Oregon and Washington that may be transferable with my job, however, how do you make such a move? My job most likely wouldn't pay for us to move...his job is going through some changes that leave us blind to the future. I'm one for planning out the future, even if it doesn't work out the way I planned, at least I have an idea of what could happen, or a goal in mind....SOMETHING. I dont know what to do anymore...this town depresses me sometimes.

Still just a dream

We went to Remax and talked with a man named Dean about financing for a new house. He took down our information and said that on Monday, he would run our credit and let us know what we were pre-approved for. He then took us to Terry, a Realtor, and we talked houses with her. She is absolutely amazing. I know that it is a Realtors job to make people a satisfied customer because they are in for the money, but there is something about her personality that makes me trust her more than I would with any other Realtor.

Anyway, we looked at some homes online and wrote down the addresses for the ones we were most interested in. Sunday, we went with her to look at those homes. We were very interested in the one on Weiman. It needs a little work, but we could see ourselves owning it and fixing it up. Still not knowing what we were pre-approved for, we didn't want to get our hearts set just yet, and we figured, it doesn't hurt to keep looking around.

Monday, while I was at work, I got a call from Terry. She said that she found a house that had just gone on the market and she thought it was perfect for us. Fit our style and was amazing. She said that if we wanted to look at it when I got off work, we were more than welcome to. When I asked how much it was, she said that it is $167,500. That's $7,000 if not more than we were wanting to spend. However, we found out only a few hours later, that we were pre-approved for $170,000. SWEET! Then this house is affordable, we just have to come up with the down payment, which we were also approved for the FHA loan, meaning that the down was only going to be 3.5%. With closing costs this would amount to approximately $7,800. We checked out the house and absolutely fell in love with it. This house is perfect, amazing, wonderful...oh my god, we want this house so bad. So, we called our parents to discuss help options. They were going to see what they could do, but then we talked to Dean about getting our credit scores printed out so that we could shop around for a good deal with financers. He decided then to tell us that we aren't approved for $170,000 he was trying to get the loan officers to use only my credit score, but they wouldn't go for it because Matt and I are married and they take the lowest score of the couple...which is Matthews. So, he basically lied to us by telling us that that was what we were eligible for. What an ass hole. LOL. So, Matt had an appointment to talk to Guild Financer's, Bill Moew, and he got a lot of useful information from him. Basically, we need 6 months to get our credit scores up to where we want it. My credit is really decent, but we can always make it better, and Matthew's credit need improvement, but wont take a whole lot of effort. SO...now that we have ideas of what we need to do, we have a goal set in mind and will be working on saving money for a hefty down payment and better credit scores...in the mean time, the house of our dreams will have to stay just a dream, because chances are that it will sell between now and the next 6 months. Sadly, that's the reality of it, but it is kind of a steal in my mind. Its about 1700 sq. ft. living space, 3 bedrooms, 2 bath, 1 den, fireplace, built in pool, fire pit in the back yard, landscaping is wonderful, huge kitchen with all appliances, decent floors, and a beautiful floor plan. This house could probably be listed at $200,000 with the possibility of getting $180,000 out of it...they are selling it for under $170,000. But, if it is meant to be, then it will still be there when we are ready to buy. Here is to hoping. LOL. We have a place to live in, its affordable, and we have made it our home even if we don't get the opportunity of owning it. So, we are thankful for what we have, and the future will surely bring better and more promising opportunities. Who knows, maybe we aren't meant to buy a home in Ridgecrest, maybe we are meant to move to Washington or Oregon...hehe, time will tell.

My Most Favorite Poems in the World

I will never let u fall,

I'm holding on so tight,

To you my sweet angel,

On this warm summer night,

The sky it shines so clear,

Through the depths of those eyes,

Your a gift from the heavens,

The answer to all my cries.

º¤ Matthew A. Griswold 7/30/2007 ¤º

This poem is about our first date...

I have found the one that I want

to spend the rest of my life with.

When spring comes I want to be the one

next to you laying in a field of flowers,

when summer comes I want to be the one

walking by your side on the beach,

when fall comes I want to be the one

sitting by your side watching the leaves change,

and when winter comes I want to be the one

snuggled up next to you by the fire.

º¤ Matthew A. Griswold 8/17/2007 ¤º

I read this to him at our wedding...

Taco Bowl Receipt

Quick and Easy

4 Servings

1 bag of tortilla chips

3 tablespoons EVOO (extra-virgin olive oil)

2 pounds of ground been

2 jalapeno peppers, seeded and finely chopped

2 medium onions, chopped

3-4 garlic cloves, chopped

1 1/2 tablespoons ground cumin, a round palmful

1 1/2 tablespoons chili powder, a round palmful

coarse salt and black pepper

2 firm Hass avocados

4 plum tomatoes, seeded and chopped

a handful of fresh cilantro leaves, chopped

juice of one lemon

4 cups shredded Monterrey Jack or sharp cheddar cheese

Lightly crush the chips. Heat a large nonstick skillet over medium to high heat. Add 2 tablespoons of the EVOO, twice around the pan. Add the beef to the skillet and brown and crumble it for 5 minutes To the browned mean add half the chopped jalapeno, three fourths of the chopped onions, and all the garlic. Season the meat with the cumin, chili powder, and salt and pepper. Cook them together for 5 minutes more, then add about a cup of water and reduce heat to low. Add salt to taste.

Halve and separate the avocados, and remove the pit. Dice the avocado while still in the skin, scoop out the dices into a bowl. Combine tomatoes, remaining onion, jalapenos, and the cilantro gently with the avocado and dress the salad with the lemon juice, the remaining tablespoon of EVOO and salt to taste.

Layer a handful or two of the chips into soup or chili bowls and top them with a handful of cheese. Fill the bowls with taco meat and top with more cheese, then mound some salad on the top and its ready to serve.

Thinking & Waiting

So, I'm definitely digging the blogging thing. Its like having a diary that anyone can read...kinda defeats the purpose of a diary, haha, but its a lot of fun. I don't know if anyone even reads it or will read it, but I enjoy making it pretty and putting my thoughts down. I'm just bored at the moment, doing laundry. My husband is on his way to Bakersfield, so I'm just trying to keep busy.

As for the update on buying the house a few doors down from my mothers, not going to be able to buy that one. The owner's are not able to keep the house, they are already falling behind on the mortgage payments so they want to sell it out right...no options and they are putting it on the market with in the next week hoping to sell it immediately, they cant hold it for a few months and we wont have the money for a down for at least a few months. However, tomorrow we are going to go look at a few houses. We went to Remax yesterday and let me tell you what...they are amazing. They are so professional, helpful, and personable. We spoke with Terry, she found a few houses in our price range that are worth taking a look at. Basically, all we have to do is come up with the down payment and then we will be on our way. That should only take us about 3-4 months. However, we can start buying a house in about 2 months because then we can just put $1,000 towards it to hold it until it hits escrow. So, thank god we stopped by Remax, we would have never thought that we could purchase a house so soon. It would figure though, our neighbors that we don't care for so much is moving...maybe our complex will be quieter...then again, could be worse...either way we would really like to buy a house and have something we can call our own. We want to have the investment, not to mention be able to do as we please with it. We want to have a pet so bad, but unfortunately we cant have any in this town house. So, wish us luck everyone...I think things will work out just fine. The way we see it is if we don't get a house right away, better options will arise and we will find the house of our dreams and have an even larger amount set aside for the down. Id say that we are pretty smart individuals. ;)

Our Special Dates

♥March 19th, 1985 Matthew's Birthday♥
♥February 7th, 1986 Lisa's Birthday♥
♥June 24th, 2007 First Date and Kiss♥
♥August 8th, 2008 Engaged♥
♥January 24th, 2009 Married♥

He makes me smile when Im sad, laugh even when I dont want to, cry when Im happy, and to this very day...he still gives me butterflies. Everything in the life has a purpose, although we may not understand why things happen the way that they do, they do happen and everything seems to be exactly how it should be. Im not perfect, I never claim to be, but in his eyes Im perfect for him, and my heart beats a strong & steady beat because of him. We are two souls bonded as one. He is my everything. I never have, and never will, in all my life, take him for granted. I dont know if he quite understands just how much he means to me. I wake up every morning still amazed at how lucky I am. I am the one that gets to wake up and look at that face of an angel, I get to look into his eyes and without even a whisper we say, "I love you." Every season is beautiful because I have him there to enjoy the changes with me. I used to hate the winter because it was cold and dead, now I look at it in a totally different aspect...its warm when I am by a fire with him under the blankets, its not dead at all, actually its a begining...those flowers and trees are just sleeping until the spring comes around and we can watch them come back full and lush together. These are our special dates for now...someday we will have added to this list. Someday we will bring beautiful children into this crazy world, and together we will get them ready for life on their own. We will prepare them to be strong yet sensitive so that they can have what we have together. Thats my next mission in life...I dont think this challenge will be too much for me, my first mission was to find someone I wanted to spend my life with and love and be loved forever. Mission accomplished...
I love you Matthew.
♥>3" Your Wife

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