25 days to go...

I'm not sure which emotion I am most feeling right now...on one hand I am super excited, but on the other its going to be hard. In 25 days, my husband will be leaving for the academy. He will be leaving on our one year wedding anniversary, and wont be back for 8 weeks. This is the opportunity he has been waiting for, for over a year. It is best for our family because this is a major career move, its just crazy timing. I cant help but feel sad because selfishly I want him to be here with me, but at the same time I'm so excited for him because he is finally establishing the stability in a job he has been searching for. Although this is going to be a long emotional two months, I support him 100%.

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When we first discussed the time that he will be down south, I was thinking that I would be able to change shifts and have my weekends off...this way, I wont be alone during the week because I would be working, and weekends I can either go down there to see him, he could come here to see me, or I can hang out with family and friends. But, I recently found out that shift change may not take affect till April, possible June. So, I'm stuck on weekend shift for the entire academy. That means, if Matthew comes up here on the weekend, I will be at work and cant spend any time with him, I cant go down there during the week because he will be working...I'm going to be alone during the week because everyone works Monday thru Friday. My birthday is during the academy, so this isn't going to be the birthday of a lifetime because I wont be spending it with the love of my life. This is going to be harder than I originally anticipated. When Matt was in Maine for training for his previous job, it was very emotional. We had just gotten married, so I wanted to spend every waking moment with him naturally...now I'm pregnant. Lol. Not going to be much easier...in fact, might be a little more emotional...and its not just for a week...its 2 months! Oh Dear! Gotta be strong...for me, Kylie, and my husband. This isn't going to be any easier for him. He doesn't want to miss out on Kylie's development or our appointments. Fortunately, he will graduate the academy on his birthday and be here for the birth of our daughter. We were most worried about the timing of the academy and that he may not be out in time for her arrival, so we are lucky that he wont miss out on that wonderful event. Everything thing happens for a reason, and things always work out for us, so I am confident that although this is going to be a difficult time, we have been through worse in our relationship and we can survive anything. I love Matthew so much.